“You’ll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your own terms and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. Laugh in the face of adversity and leap before you look. Dance as though everybody is watching. March to the beat of your own drummer and stubbornly refuse to fit in.”
– Mandy Hale
Humans as we all are, there are times that our thoughts had lead us to where we dont want to find ourselves in a normal day.
Little details, usually insignificant things we encounter everyday- at work, at the bus station, the store and even at home, irritates our mind, and we let it escalate, verging on that dark intent that, I hope, only our imagination have the power to fulfill in its fullest satisfaction. (Have a stronger grip. Don’t ever give in to that little voices in your head…) You look up to ask for patience.
I have to admit that I can’t count the many occasions I had ALMOST give in to my emotions as a result of my negative thoughts. Whenever fate, or time or circumstances thwarts me, the seed of anger, sadness and disappointment begin as a spark in the early morning that won’t go away no matter how much you try to distract yourself and escape it, and instead continue to grow until there’s no way out, and finally ruined your otherwise wonderful day. The choices are: express it or get sucked in that dark prison of hurt and pain. Tough.
Sometimes it gets too overwhelming and felt like the world is closing in. If that’s the case, I confront it by crying. Or binge eating. But oftentimes, i slammed the cabinet doors (nope, the mirror is off-limits…or is it?) , try to strangle every breath out of that pillow and drunk caffeine until it vanished every trace of sleep in my system. Obnoxious, I know. And yes, childish. For a 28 year old.
And it led me to understand why kids throw tantrums.
Of course, I always try to analyze myself (self assessment is cure). I start with seeing the root of the problem (how can an accidental failure to save a 5-page long document you just encoded before a major power shortage be a huge problem for someone my age? Only it’s due in about half hour.)
You see, we work up our emotions through our thoughts by constantly worrying about the things that may never happen, or that you have absolutely no control over, until we can’t get hold of it anymore. Then the struggle to hold it in begin and it gets worse.
I’m proud of the people who stays cool in the face of that all and able to hold it in, all in the name of dignity and humanity. And perhaps a little bit of maturity.
One less day on our already short life. All because the world refuse to give in to our will.
Well, here’s news for you, my fellow door slammers:
The world doesn’t and will never give a d**n about what you want. Fate will defy you and the whole universe will conspire against you. Your wishes will fall on the deaf ears of airplane you mistook for a falling star. And that one great love might love somebody else, and you can break all the glasses and bowls one lonely night but the world will remain a harsh unfeeling b**ch. To top it all, life will still be short. And all you hurt is yourself by thinking all the negative thoughts your over zealous imagination can come up with.
But here’s the catch: only you has the power to control the way you think and how things will affect your beautiful self. It’s just a matter of seeing who is stronger. It’s the battle of thought and will and how we perceive things to be.
This life doesn’t mean to be easy. We are living in a harsh world.
There will be always stress and problems at home, and all the polluted products of humanity we would never control and will be there to confront us, and we are vulnerable.
Snap your fingers and change it all- Just like that. One wonderful thought at a time.
Remember, your thoughts have the power to shape your future. You are what you perceive yourself to be.
Let your thoughts carry you to where your heart wants to be.
Magandang Gabi from Puerto Princesa, Philippines!
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